Okay Guys....Here It Is..

So I’ve kept a blog for years now— it’s mostly just running updates and life things. It’s small and personal, and not something that has a big audience. 

You all were invited to my Blogger because I shared a link with you, but this website doesn’t actually show who is viewing, just the time of day and if it’s a returning visitor coming to the page.

I've had no reason to ponder who comes to this page up until recent. For the most part, I thought I knew everyone who was watching this page. 

A few months ago I started noticing that the blog was getting way more traffic than made sense. I only have a handful of friends who follow it, and they’re people I know in real life. So it didn’t make sense for it to have multiple views every day, and sometimes in clusters. Nothing I was posting was viral or public in that way. My page URL is also not on the Google domain, and I made sure to remove it for privacy reasons.

So that got my attention, and I started paying a little more attention to the patterns of many views that I was getting. And that’s when I remembered that the blog URL I’m using now is actually an old blog I had about ten years ago now... 

Back in 2016 shortly after Matt and I got engaged, his ex-girlfriend found it, and she used it to read up on my life obsessively. This was almost a decade ago, but I hadn’t thought about that in a long time.

Once I realized I was using that same blog link again, I started to wonder if she was still visiting the page. The traffic showed very consistent visiting on a regular basis. 

It wasn’t occasional. It was on certain days, multiple times during that day, and at times when there was nothing new to read. It felt like someone was checking on me— like someone was looking to see if I had posted anything.

At that point, I decided to utilize the help of AI to install a tool on this site that shows a little more information about who's viewing my blogs. It still doesn’t tell you exactly who my readers are, but it shows things like whether the viewer is new or returning, what device they’re on, and where the network is coming from. And what I noticed is that the repeat traffic was coming from a specific corporate network off of Southside — the same one on specific days of the week, during business hours. 

I have screenshots on a map, of a location on Phillips Hwy and Baymeadows which is the rough location of where my unrealistic amount of views are coming from. An IP address tied to a certain small company where someone is using the WiFi when viewing my blog. I don't want to give screenshots or detail locations out of consideration but to a reader who frequents this space, I can see where you're viewing my page from.

The timing of the views have been really specific: At one point it was mainly Tuesdays and Thursdays, between about eight in the morning and five in the afternoon. 

Viewing stops on weekends and holidays and then picks back up the next week. 

There’s no reason anyone at that company would be reading my blog, but I researched this a little further via someone I know who works there and they verified for me that Matt’s ex still works there.

So yes, Matt’s ex is back to watching this page, and has been on this page a lot.

I’m talking, more than any of you.

The data that I have stretches for many months. The number of views are in the triple digits which isn't just impressive but downright disturbing. It’s become very clear that I’m being monitored….hopefully just on the blog, not casually followed and it reminded me exactly of what happened ten years ago.

Which leads me to the below...

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Dear A, 

Welcome back, I guess. It’s strange to realize that you still had the link to this old page — I didn’t expect that. I’m sure you’ve seen a mix of content here: mostly running, some daily life, and whatever else I feel like talking about in the moment.

If you’re truly this intrigued, you’re welcome to stay tuned. You’re also welcome to connect with me on social media if being up to date with my life is that important to you, though you’ve had me blocked for many years so I’m unsure what dynamic we’re operating in.

Now, I want to say this plainly and without hostility: I mean this out of genuine compassion and respect. Your behavior here is not normal, and it doesn’t feel healthy.

I don’t know that I can put into words how uncomfortable and unnerving it is to be watched from a distance in such a secretive way as you have been doing for some time now. It feels like you’re studying my life without any intention of interaction, and that’s a bizarre position to put someone in.

I’m not going to pretend I don’t understand why you’re here. I do. 

And I’m not oblivious to the long history of you keeping tabs on my life. I’m not going to dissect that publicly, or drag it into gossip territory, because my life is not a spectacle. But I think it’s fair to acknowledge that for many years now, you haven’t really been able to stay away. This AI tool I've installed to my site has given me quite the compelling insight into just how much you watch me and for how long. 

This doesn’t have to be a beef or a rivalry. I’m living my life — running, traveling, working, trying to grow — and you’re free to do the same. But there’s a difference between curiosity and fixation. One is human. The other is consuming. I don’t know what this is for you, but I hope you figure it out in a way that gives you peace.

Either way, you should be careful about which WiFi systems you use before committing (checks notes) 1.2K worth of online stalking to private pages in the span of a calendar year.

Keep on smiling I guess...